Surrendering to the Universe, to Love and the Ocean.

I have reached a position in my life where I am slightly uncomfortable with myself. It is as if I can completely visualize the person in which I want to be, but I all but too often allow my vision to be clouded by the activities that surround me on a weekly basis. Mostly what I am referring to is alcohol. Having half priced booze, a bar filled with friends and good Texas country right down the road from my house is something I often take advantage of.

There was a time when I would have not seen this as a problem. In fact, there really is nothing 'wrong' with the situation with the exception that it is not what I want for myself and my life.

I envision days and nights of clarity, thought provoking conversation, truly feelingmy inner Goddess coming alive through meditation, reading and learning. I have a desire to create success, far beyond what I have grown to know. I feel as if the partying is clouding my journey and creating what I wish know as a reality far, far from my reach. Not to mention the toll it is taking on my health.

As I journey to the ocean tomorrow. I wish not for a booze & reefer filled week. But rather a mediating & epiphany filled week. My goal is to open my heart 100%. To completely surrender to the Universe and be one with the earth. I can feel it in my heart, I want it to be apparent on my face, in my skin and displayed on my body- let health radiate through my shape and pores.

I know to some of you, it might seem like an easy task, to not drink. It is as if I formed a pattern, a habit and it won't be easy for me to break. Now that my heart is in the right place, it will be easier to get my head there. No one can turn things around except me!