I know it's been a while since I have written. My apologies!! <3
July 19, 2009
Whenever you are in High School, time seems to go by so slowly. However, now that I have been out of school for almost 5 years now, I can’t help but wonder where all the time has gone. I use to be excited about growing up and getting old. Today while I was swimming a wave of sadness came over me at the thought of not being able to experience my twenties ever again. It’s weird to think about. I will never be 22 years old again, ever. ::Takes a deep breath:: As sad as that thought might be, it really puts into perspective how beautiful each day, each moment, each breath truly us. It also gave me the space to consider how frivolous something’s are to worry about, to stress over or to be upset about.
I have list upon lists of things I need to do to further myself, my home and my business. The longer I wait to scratch another line off of my many lists, the more I am pushing my dreams and goals away from me. I have so much going on right now, so many opportunities at my feet. It seems that none of them are launching because I am standing in the frantic chaos that there is so much to do.
I am excited about sorting out my life. I am going to take 30 minutes to myself each night to gather my thoughts. Write, plan out my following day, take deep breaths, visualize and relax. Being on the verge of tears is stressful and quite frankly puts a giant knot in my chest. The only thing that ever seems to relieve me of that is writing and breathing. No longer will I rob myself of my ventilation and sanity. Writing is who I am. It’s what I know.
Who am I to not live life to the fullest?
How dare I rob the world of my talents.
Share, Love, Give, Hope, Trust, Express
Expand my knowledge
Feel with the deepest of Emotions
Stretch to the tallest Trees
Look beyond what is
To create, “Be”
