Austin, Texas

It was as if The Universe had opened up and shined down upon me, telling me my world was going to be just fine. Everything was exactly how it should be and to surrender my fear.
Our vacation began in Austin, we decided to come here for a couple days to break up the drive. I was also slightly eager to get out of Ennis. I love where I live, but every now and then we just need an escape. Our first visit was to Mount Bonnell, one of my favorite look outs in Austin.
Our adventures just started and I am anxious to see what is coming my way. I feel that this journey is going to be a significant one.

Surrendering to the Universe, to Love and the Ocean.

I have reached a position in my life where I am slightly uncomfortable with myself. It is as if I can completely visualize the person in which I want to be, but I all but too often allow my vision to be clouded by the activities that surround me on a weekly basis. Mostly what I am referring to is alcohol. Having half priced booze, a bar filled with friends and good Texas country right down the road from my house is something I often take advantage of.

There was a time when I would have not seen this as a problem. In fact, there really is nothing 'wrong' with the situation with the exception that it is not what I want for myself and my life.

I envision days and nights of clarity, thought provoking conversation, truly feelingmy inner Goddess coming alive through meditation, reading and learning. I have a desire to create success, far beyond what I have grown to know. I feel as if the partying is clouding my journey and creating what I wish know as a reality far, far from my reach. Not to mention the toll it is taking on my health.

As I journey to the ocean tomorrow. I wish not for a booze & reefer filled week. But rather a mediating & epiphany filled week. My goal is to open my heart 100%. To completely surrender to the Universe and be one with the earth. I can feel it in my heart, I want it to be apparent on my face, in my skin and displayed on my body- let health radiate through my shape and pores.

I know to some of you, it might seem like an easy task, to not drink. It is as if I formed a pattern, a habit and it won't be easy for me to break. Now that my heart is in the right place, it will be easier to get my head there. No one can turn things around except me!

My Obituary

Today's post on Owning Pink was a tremendous one. The exercise was encouraging you to write your obituary now as if you died today and then to write another as if you died at whatever age you wanted to and accomplished all the things you wished.
Really makes you think about how your life is going, what we value and what we take for granted. Here is my Obituary:

If I died today:
Megan Monique Harner, 22, passed away this Monday evening. She is survived by her parents Donald and Margie Harner, sister Sara and boyfriend, Brian Lewis. Megan was a loving daughter and sister.

If I had it my way:

Megan Monique Harner, age 103, passed away from natural causes on September 7, 2090. Survived by her daughter, Fiona age 65. Megan was an accomplished writer, musician, speaker and mother. Through her passion for people and travel she transformed the lives of many. Megan was a unique and joyous spirit. The world is a better place because she existed.

I will be keeping this in mind. I could very well pass away today, tomorrow or a year from now. From this point forward I am dedicating my life to my dreams and following through with my many ambitions. Boys and Girls, hold on to your seats, this lady and FLYIN HIGH!